The Portal: Portal-ity Thoughts

 Dear John, I've wanted to let these words out for a while now, they've been burning inside my head, and at 1:38 a.m., they need to be set free.  I haven't been sleeping well.  Obviously.  The audible books and medication can't keep out the thoughts lately, and it seems that the window of 2:00 - 5:00 a.m. has become my nemesis.  I think the culmination of triggers lately has pushed my brain into a frenzied state and it's going wild at night.  The sadness, guilt, and frustration are at their peak in the wee hours and I am subject to their mercy. The current trigger, in addition to Grandpa's death, was being told I was "handling it well".  Handling the death of my father WELL??  Indeed, how does one handle death well?  Do you have any idea what that day was like?  Read on. I am assuming what was meant was I am handling it with a startling lack of emotion.  If they only knew.  Yes, outwardly I am going through the motions and ever...

Tomorrow is John's golden birthday. 🎈Happy 25th son.  I wonder what you're doing?  Your dad is on his fifth book about Heaven. It sounds amazing.  I will read those books too when I can concentrate on the words, because I know it would give me joy and peace to be able to imagine where you are and what you might be doing.  I know Heaven is not what we mere mortals imagine it to be.  It's not a 24/7 cloud sitting party, singing old hymns, across an eternity of boredom.  Not by a long shot.  Brian wonders why we don't hear more sermons on it.  Why we aren't excited about its possibilities, why our attitude is one of dragging our feet to our grave and not anticipating the day we get to go!  God is amazing - we only see a fraction of his creativity and beauty on Earth.  He has an eternity of wonder, of knowledge, of love and belonging in store for those who believe, and to us, that day is greatly anticipated, more so now that you have gone...

Hi and Welcome! I've always been fascinated with the word Portal.  It's come up several times throughout my life and I'm sure God has a purpose for it . . .but until that day, I'm just going to enjoy the word.  So, I'm trying out this blogging thing.  My friend Ronna thinks it will be a good creative outlet for me, so I thought, why not.  I'm a wordy, I love words, I love books, I love paper,  I love writing, I love all of it.  So, until I'm ready to write that novel, let's try a blog.  I mean, seriously, who doesn't have one already!   So, I thought I would share some practicality with you today through this "portal".  Some valuable information. Hopefully, some helpful information.  Lately, a good portion of my study and reading has been on the same topic, whether I've chosen it, or it's been chosen for me, and that is our thoughts and thought life, or rather my thought life.   Your thought life is your business,...